you know. yesterday i was really blessed by P.Da's sermon! to be in the world but not of it
just like a diver in the waters, in the environment but not belonging to it.. just like how when divers dive into the water they bring their oxygen tanks, and they eventually need to go up again and refill the oxygen. we are like the divers in water. we have to constantly seek God as our oxygen, so essential. we need to keep coming up to the surface, to look at the big picture, to take ourselves out of the busyness of life, out of all the excuses that hinder us from having a closer relationship w Him, out of our problems and start praising God. in every circumstance. i need that. and like how divers never dive alone, and how they have to constantly maintain eye contact with each other we have our cell mates our church friends our classmates and our family to spur us on in this race, that in case if one of us has a faulty oxygen tank and begin to lose oxygen, lose sight of God and our purpose, that they can share their oxygen until they reach the surface, full of oxygen, full of God, full of His promises again, full of what He has in mind for us. full of God. i want my life to be full of God.. i want to seek him more and more despite the busyness.. why cant i? to remind myself that studying isnt everything. that God has saved me a place in nyjc already.. thats good enough. and now its time to praise god more and seek him more.
because if i lose my oxygen if i stay in the waters for too long i'll get decompression disease. which induces confusion, blurry vision, unexplainable behaviour change, dizziness and nausea. this is what happens. (its proven go search!) we all need God, just that sometimes we think we're strong enough and able enough to handle things on our own. when actually we cant. i need god.
XOXO 12:23 AM
Sunday, August 30, 2009
blogger reverted back to its ugly self again!! whats happening!! hahaha.
geog chpt on tourism is as long and gross as mad cow disease, finally finished the chapter for tmr's test but i still need to go over it again. mann, its so long n draggy.
tmr's teachers day and i am quite the sadz cuz both my class and our band didnt get through auditions, we thought we cld perform for the last time in bty. but well i guess we're not good enough?? personally i felt that at least our class shld have gotten in cuz like we changed all the lyrics (so nice la, wasted) and like our entire class kept staying back to rehearse and all. not forgetting us getting scolded by ms shammie cuzzzz u guys know right. so i really feel that our class should have gotten in. maybe the organisers quite disorganised this year haha (haha!), they didnt even inform us about results or anything and the auditions were ._. (no mics lolzzzzz)
i was thinking maybe our class shld like gather all our teachers and we can sing them the song, afterall its not about performing rights its more about showing our huge ass appreciation to them :) dont knowwww pure geogers have a test tmr so yeah.
quite excited to see some seniors tomorrow like MORON and all! :)but hope i cannnnnnnnnnnnnnn cuz i have geog test after teachers day celeb which sucks(mmmyeah) and then idk if we're going back to YZ cuz val said go ask elias yeo hong jie bear and i havent gotten to that, k
STUDY
BYE
XOXO 7:29 PM
dear God,
your presence was so real, so magnificent, so wonderful, so undescribable. i am so in awe of you lord :) thank you for refreshing me completely today, nothing beats being in God's house praising you! there's this unspeakable peace in me, because i know that i am found in You.
i love you abba father, xoxo mel
XOXO 3:16 AM
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XOXO 2:57 AM
Saturday, August 29, 2009
wow! blogger reverted back to its normal self. finally! the previous sort of blogger page was quite an ugly sight.. haha.
had sch till 1230 today, came home and did abit of geog (tourism test on mon after teachers day celeb..) then got ready then went down to meet TJ and joseph haha @ the ktv room. k la quite fun :) haha thanks for always walking me to my faraway block! haha. waited 4 val, met her @ lorong chuan stn went to taka to get lynn her colourful bracelets. met nic @ orchard trained to kembangan met han and gareth. went to T3 and sent lynn off. she's going off to the states to study. we'll miss her so so much ;( take care stay strong!! <3
dinnered with the rest and cabbed home our fare was $30.90 just so i don;t forget, haha. gonna finish up my environmental impacts of tourism now and probably do abit of the spec. paper if not on sunday i'll die from all the homework and studying. !!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me byebye
XOXO 1:23 AM
Thursday, August 27, 2009
i will exalt you, you are my God
hi guys!!! haven't been posting. prelims comin up next week. yippee. i feel like i've got alot to thank God for.. friends. friends who are very supporting and encouraging. chloe, love you! we run the race together. (4ever) hahaha. <3 thank God for my parents. that they love me so much and that they keep encouraging me cuz i keep studying and they see the pained look on my face. haha! that momi bothers to buy dinner back for me cuz i dont wanna waste time to go and eat out with her. love you, mom. that she bought sushi tei for me today because she said i havent been eating well (hahaha!! since when do i not eat well.. probably overly well) love her.
thank God that i'm covering my subjects in time for prelims that i'm not rushing. that he's giving me all the strength i need for this. all the assurance i need, that He's my security. that i dont need to worry anymore because its all in His mighty hands. that Your plans for me are perfect lord. thank God for sis v, lord thank you so much. that she gives me great advice all the time. always reassuring me that God, you are my saviour and you will pull me through the toughest tallest mountains. that i am not gonna study till late and compromise on my tawg anymore because lord you reign over ever aspect of my life :)
i am still praying and claiming territories, worship X next friday and i am praying for alluv you :) hehe.
ps: learning to love God more and more and seek him with all my heart with each passin day :B
XOXO 7:37 PM
Monday, August 24, 2009
You first surrendered Your divine dwelling place
To walk on earth and take the path to Calvary
You took my life, and made it new
So now I live to sing of Your grace, Your majesty
You said whoever would believe in You shall see
Your power that overcomes the grave and sets me free
I will rejoice, in victory
So now I live to sing of Your grace, Your majesty
Lord it’s by Your blood
That I can live again
Because You came
I believe
You gave Your life just for me
Now I’m free
Forever I’ll give m my life just to love You
And follow You Lord
I believe,
I believe.
XOXO 1:14 AM
Sunday, August 23, 2009
my blogger page is completely screwed. but whatever i guess i'm just contented now that i can actually access the page.
1. well i learnt quite alot from svc today 2. jam served as a very good reminder. impacts/influence/responsibilities over personal lifestyle options :p 3. lynn's last ignyte svc- very sad. will miss u girl!! thanks for the notes photos and such <3 4. gareth came for fuel and svc. 5. oh oh during jam we did two awesome ignyte songs!!!!! I REALLY LOVE THEM because i felt that they both spoke to me- One God and I believe
LISTEN TO THEM ON OUR IGNYTE WEBSITE HERE http://www.trinity.net/ignyte/index.htm (click on media) sorry i cant do the clickey thingy here cuz rememberrr my blogger quite messed up! btw,
IGNYTE IS HAVING A COMBINED WORSHIP EXPERIENCE ON 4SEPT 7:30-9:30 AT TRINITY@ADAM 4THFLOOR AUDI! ASK ME! :)(ITS GONNA BE AWESOME I AM SO EXCITED)
6.we had thai for dinner 7.went to swirl as usual :) i love hazelnut icecream there its the best ever rly go try 8. missed our usual 11 o clock 153 so we waited a little longer for the next one 9.val and i did our usual skip thingy to the bus stop and sice jonus didnt come ytd han couldnt do it with him lol :p 10.saw ms caneda and she gave me a puzzled look since i was skipping on the street linking arms with valo 11.tuition this morning, saw uncle ben the swimming instructor @ the pool again as usual. 12. tutor and i survived the 2 hr tuition with two packets of sour gummy candy, love it
just done with english homework learnt quite a couple of new words
OK bye. school tomorrow again, all im looking forward to is qt in the morning. such a blessing to have these awesome friends to do qt with!! best thing to start monday and the week. God.
thing to do: buy hillsong tear down these walls album buy physics longman, 101 and structured
XOXO 8:20 PM
Thursday, August 20, 2009
i really have no weedy why my com is dying- facebook is scrwd on mozilla, cant open my mails on IE nor mozzie, yada, blogger 'create-a-post' page looks so crappish (doesnt look like blogger at all, just white typing space) all you tech geeks out there is this a virus i'm getting?! gross, its really inconvenient. esp cuz i need to check my mails for worshipmin and ng pi wei caterpillar!
i hadss to use my itouch to do that. i don't like you compy. school is tiring. understatement. Word. i need our comp repairman to come soon, dont think we all can survive with such a com! esp with e learning day coming up next thurs (snigger) haha yay :)
today was a long day. ended lessons at 330 and tuition from 4 to 6. barely had time to breathe. geog lesson today was beyond confusing! i hate the part about sustainable tourism dev, its quite misleading sometimes. test on that nextnext monday. prelims in 2 weeks. don't know what to feel, barely started on geog and zilch on ss and hist yet! physics is onto completion (i guess), i need to buy and start doing longman or i'll feel incompetent. hahaha. also i need to read more books, my command of english is like shitworth now (almost like an average singaporean kid) which is............ eugh :9 i want my chimz eglish back hahahah. i think i havent been reading enough/putting enough effort in english/like doing vocab list and all since my vocab suckz. even my grammar like one piece of shit now.
oral was average, not fantastic. quite disappointing.
chinese results out ytd- i got a c5 with merit for oral. please dont be sympathetic or what cuz im quite happy :) barely pass my chinese usually yey. blessing. chlochlo got a2!!!!!!!!!!!!! omgee so prouda u, and dione n minnie got b4 smart cheena assies.
TGIF for tomorrow in advance but then again this marks the end of another week, on to another, which means a week closer to prelims, a week closer to o's BUT a week closer to end of o's!!!!!!!! learning to be optimistic. helps.
btw its 11pm and i'm in school u, i believe i really need a bath now. because girls r supposed to be clean and bathe early. so i should too.
keep praying and claiming territories, guys!
XOXO 10:47 PM
Saturday, August 15, 2009
aby, i want you to know that even though so many people turn their backs on you, deny your identity in Christ, shoot you with words more piercing than dagger, never once considering how you felt- aby i want you to know that although this might seem such a huge and overwhelming problem right now. i want you to know that it is through trials that we will learn to entirely put our faith in God. in james 1:2-4 it says consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
recently remember what i've learnt in cell that i had shared with u guys during our monday qt? let God put you through the fire, let him buff you into the shiny diamond that He wants you to be, that nothing (nothing) can hinder you from what God has in mind for you. His plans are pefect for you, simply because He is our creator.. that you trust that there is a knowing watchman waiting outside the furnace and He knows when to take you out of the fire. do not worry about what people think or be afraid of them because only God knows what really happened. what position are these passers by in to comment about you? that you were smiling? they can think all they want but never get the truth, so lets not put ourselves in hatred and in rage for them. because God knows and thats all that matters :0
romans12:14-21 says to bless your persecutors. aby i know it might be hard but nothing is impossible with Christ. for those who had shot words like daggers at you and to the agressor herself, from those who silently curse you but pretend to care and those who outrightly give you a slap on your face without considering anything at all- aby lets pray for them that one day they might see the Light, our beautful saviour that had died on the cross for their sins.
also it says do nt repay evil with evil. Do not take revenge, but leave room for God's wrath that will come. Trust that God will come, as surely as the sun will rise every dawn. for now lets forgive and forget- leaving everything at the cross in God's mighty hands. that even though it might seem to others a small issue that was blown up. god knows the true intensity of shitblah that you're going through. now, God is putting you through the fire. will you let Him? i assure you aby that as u trust in him, walking by faith and not by sight that you will come out of the fire more refined and stronger, salt and light of the earth. "I will not leave you nor forsake you."
love you.
XOXO 2:15 AM
Friday, August 14, 2009
I love/miss choir. quite badly. many people change their ccas each time they move up to higher education but i'll never quit choir- i think i have real passion for it!!
i miss miss miss performing. i miss working on my tone/voice/breathing/facial expressions hahaha. and most of all, im gonna miss ms pua! and the beatty choir.
hmm hmm, i am meeting valo at 530. its 5.09 now and i havent bathed!!!!!!!
why am i always so late for appointments...... i suck. better kick that habit.
bee bee!
XOXO 5:07 PM
On the day when I see All that You have for me When I see You face to face There surrounded by Your grace
All my fears swept away In the light of Your embrace Where Your love is all I need and forever I am free
Where the streets are made of gold In Your presence healed and whole Let the songs of heaven rise to You alone
No weeping No hurt or pain No suffering You hold me now, You hold me now No darkness No sick or lame No hiding You hold me now, You hold me now
In this life I would stand through my joy and my pain Knowing there’s a greater day There's a hope that never fades
Where Your name is lifted high and forever praises rise For the glory of Your name I'm believing for the day
Where the wars and violence cease All creation lives in peace Let the songs of heaven rise to You alone
For eternity All my heart will give All the glory to Your Name
You hold me now- i love this song. above all Lord thank you for holding me always, lifting me up when i am down and tired, I can do all things through Christ who strenthens me. Lord, i will forever be in awe of you. Let the songs of heaven rise to you alone!
Lets rejoice everyone, because today is the day the Lord has made!! I will rejoice and be glad in it:)
XOXO 1:21 AM
Free Fallin- John Mayer
Shes a good girl, loves her mam a Loves jesus and america too Shes a good girl, crazy bout elvis Loves horses and her boyfriend too
Its a long day living in reseda Theres a freeway runnin through the yard And Im a bad boy cause I dont even miss her Im a bad boy for breakin her heart
And Im free, free fallin Yeah Im free, free fallin
All the vampires walkin through the valley Move west down ventura boulevard And all the bad boys are standing in the shadows A ll the good girls are home with broken hearts
And Im free, free fallin Yeah Im free, free fallin Free fallin, now Im free fallin, now im Free fallin, now Im free fallin, now im
I wanna glide down over mulholland I wanna write her name in the sky Gonna free fall out into nothin Gonna leave this world for a while
And Im free, free fallin Yeah Im free, free fallin
Fact #1: I AM Still INSANELY IN <3 with GEOR'S MIXED TAPE FOR ME! Fact#2: I love free fallin andchristmas tv <3 Fact #3: I REALLY LOVE JOHN MAYER NOW!!!! OMGAH he's like duper talented love love love his songs <3333 Fact #4: miss piwei, been emailing him recently!! 5 weeks till he's back again. (you owe me a good ol long email eh, cats :p) Fact#5: God is good!!!!!! i need to get round to doing *someth* asap :/ dionee remind me about this Fact #6: scored ok-not-bad-decent-quite-happy for my recent tests- ss sbq, english essays, chem hydrocarbon test.
yay me, studying physics now. my room became an igloo byebye
ps bon's dinner and karaoke session tmr!!! hhahaha guess what
XOXO 12:29 AM
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
It occurs to me how close happiness and sadness are. so closely knitted together. such a thin line, a thread-like divide that in the midst of emotions, it trembles, blurring the territory of exact opposites. the movement is minute, like the thin thread of a spider's web that quivers under a raindrop. here in my moment of unstoppable cheel-and-stomach-aching laughter, as my body rolls around, my stomach clenched, all the muscles taut, my body jumps about, is racked by emotion and therefore steps ever so slightly over the mark, and into sadness. tears of sadness gush down my cheeks as my stomach continues to shake and ache with happiness.
i think of conor and me; how quicklu a moment of love was snapped away to a moment of hate. one coment to steal it all away. of how love and war stand upon the very same foundations. how, in my darkest moments, my most fearful times, when faced, becomes my bravest. when feeling at your weakest you end up showing more strength, when at your lowest you are suddenly lifted above higher than you've ever been. they all border one another, those opposites, and how quickly we can be altered. despair can be altered by one simple smile offeredby a stranger; confidence can become fear by the arrival of one uneasy presence. just as kate's son had wavered on the balance beam and in an instant his excitement had turned into pain. everything is on the verge, always brimming the surface, a slight shake, a tremble sends things toppling. how similar emotions are.
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a veil hangs between the two opposites, a mere slip of a thing that is transparent to warn us or comfort us. you hate now but look through this veil and see the possibility of love; you're sad now but look through to the other side and see happiness. absolute composure to a complete mess- it happens so quickly, all in the blink of an eye.
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i read my book today (compromised on study time lol) it was really great. i loved those two parts the most. thought-evoking!!! hahaha. ceceilia ahern's a great writer, love her style.
XOXO 11:24 PM
Monday, August 10, 2009
happy birthday my two girl friends CANDIES BEBE and GERMOGIRL!!!!!!!!!!!
you guys mean the world to me <3 bff n i mean it hokay ;)
ps uncle kracker has real cute and feel-good songs :) pps THOSE WHO HOLD PICTURES FROM TODAY PLS UPLOAD ON FB!!!!!!!! pity i forgot my cammie. ppps studying my most hated human geog chapter now- food (so ironical) pppps blogger sucks the page is weird and the 'upload photos' button disappeared.
XOXO 2:59 AM
Saturday, August 8, 2009
"God cannot be proven or disproven by debate. Those who have a relationship with him will know who he is, but guys the only way to find God, to see for your self is to seek him. Ask him to come into your life, but only out of a heart of wanting to find him will you find him. It says in the bible that only a fool says in his heart their is no God - in other words, its the stance of the heart that matters. Its not something that needs to be proven, its wether or not youre open to find out or not."
"I'd rather live believing that there is a God and then die to find out that there isn't , than to live believing there isn't a God then die to find out that there is". (Albert Camus)
XOXO 1:41 PM
hi guys long time no clickityclicktypetype on my blog yo. dont knwowhats up with the box that im typing in?? its so weird. blogger is sick.
anyway. was just listening to how i sound on the mic and i feel that my voice is so thin and tense and so badly controlled sometimes!! i want to work on that. then it reminds me of my choir to be next year and i sort of cant wait to go for choir:) at the same time i'm gonna miss beatty choir so much esp ms pua and mrs lim our pianist and everyone in it! especially clara! and all my 1e4 girls! pfft :(
anywayz today was a slacky day bebe, went shopping for abit @ ion with minnie and chlochlo since dione and mandy left quickly. got two cute shirts 'discosaurus' and 'nerdosaurus' with the latter referring to well, me. been surrounding myself homework and revision galore. not a pretty sight. also i have semi-evolved into a panda and my complexion is at the expense of studying so much. (not so much la but enough to make me feel yucky)
one thing awesome about today is that i've caught up with a few of my old friends which is nice!! warm fuzzy feeling when you discover tha they're still the same and they talk the same and they look the same mostly (even though u shaved ur head and grew skinnier and darker H!)waha. andy's the same too. its really nice to talk to old friends. brings back my lower sec memories which were really the good ole days.
tmr @ church is IMPACT, i'm praying and claiming territories and ignyte is wearing uniform to church tmr which is fo shizzle cool! hmm. im freezing.
time to finish up my tys chapters, tawg and go to bed. its 2.53am good morning, sunshine.
