freaking pmsy.

will bury myself in homework..

fridays don't feel like fridays anymore

and can you stop being a slave for her... goodness




if it really is you then you're sick and sick in the mind..






CNY school break coming soon, freaking eggcited for that. A BREAK haha. and when i'm only into my first month of school. how about that? haha.

first of all i would like to tell you that my face is in a completely disgusting state. or my forehead at least. just bought new facial wash ha ha ha why am i telling you this ha ha.

anyway. school has been tiring. its the kind of thing that you're constantly counting down to the end of the last lesson.. kinda thing. ish. but school for j1s just started so i guess it'll be better (i hope) seeing choir friends around school and all my lovely lovely friends who retained.

met con today!! also. missed ray a hell lot while she was @ orientation. it really is depressin for me to sit in class listening to mr ng drone about overland flow and evapotranspiration and what affects the infiltration capacity of the ground while knowing and hearing all the fun the orientation people are having!! screaming n cheering and everything. the only comfort is i dont miss 4 days of school and dont have to struggle to catch up.. and that ive done my math test alr haha.

OH WELL. its okay. be focused mel!!!

met momi after school today at town.. went to buy some cny food. ate at tanpopo. not a fan. haha.

seen quite a few 11:11's the past few days... not sure that i believe in that tho :p

agh. clb at 7 tmr. what. a. drag. and have to make up for the one that i skipped this morning ugh :(

ha goodnight guys!!

ps: wait, your name does start with G right? cuz i can't think of anyone right now.. haha.





hi all. sorry for the previous posts i must have been a little pmsy ish (post, though), hence the emotions ha ha ha.

anyway. today i woke up at 215 and forgot there was lcell at 3 until sis v texted me at 310 asking if i was gonna reach soon. sigh. what a muddlehead i am. but service was so.good.today. omg. really good. God was totally there. working in our hearts. and i really wanna be focusing on an eternal purpose this year... and also have been committing and devoting myself to grow in my prayer life. which is good. wouldnt have been able to do that without the desire and discipline that God has granted me.
and my tummy is making weird noises. but its not like im hungry or anything.

anyway. i am supposed to have read my econs and a little of ionic equilibria so i can complete my tutorials tmr... maybe start a lil on math test revision? but i just had to blog and i cant blog using my phone.. so. yep.

tmr i need to wake up early to do hw so i really hope to be able to get up!!

well the cell had steamboat today.. and there is finally more than 4 or 5 people from the cell attending svc which was a little heartening i guess hahaha. but its another thing if they're stayin. but anyway. i really enjoyed dinner and hanging out with em, miss that alot alot.

tmr there's bty bbq with some close friends but I HAVE SLIGHT diarrhoea which is damn annoying. so i dunno if im going. and momi was pissed with me cuz i got home late today...... but then again its not like i do it all the time....

great is the Lord God almighty, great is the Lord on high. the train of His robe fills the temple as we cry out highest praise....... :)

lift up your hands, open the doors, let the King of glory come in and 4ever be our God!!~~

hehehehe




feels like you guys are going and going and going on, and.. i'm kinda tired... actually

really




its a friday night and TGIF and everything, i have a very awesome weekend ahead of me (if i don't think about the massive hill of homework) with cell steamboat and beatty bbq.... i get to sleep in for 2 days (until i have 7 'o' clock CLB lessons 4 days/week) and there is some awesome weather happening now...
yet i feel sad :/ sad cuz i miss you, i guess

but i know it isn't your fault. just. that. we're busy people.. i guess.

on another note altogether CLB class was very good today, as amusing and entertaining and stress relieving as it always is. the teacher is immensely funny. love her. and i made friends today... so it wasn't as lonely i guess...... but i missed half an hour of warm ups cuz class ended at 6. and everyone is annoyed at the ridiculous timing, hence the 7 'o' clock thing for 4days/wk. confirm cannot wake up.

today didnt feel like a friday cuz the choir people didn't go eat dinner. since we were waiting for jin to lock up the choir room and it was about 830 when we left, everyone PSed and left esmond and i.... so we ate at nex and went home. and i'm really sian now, all my hw in front of me but aggh.

btw this is my first time turning on my lappy for this week. cuz the internet is very distracting and time consuming!!

okay. catch you later.

btw who is G on my tagboard ah




getting this vibe which isn't exactly a very good feeling but i shall just put it away for now.




why do you have new people in your life and never talk anymore?

anyway. after choir ytd had dinner with the usuals and randomly decided to sleepover @ jin's. so jin came over for a bit (virgin moment at my place!) while i packed n showered then we went over but ha ha ha after watching tv for abit i crashed liaoz. SORRY IF I SNORED HAHA yep didnt do anything much but really good just hangin out with them <3

left in the late afternoon for svc. svc was good good good very good. omg please check out the song great in all the earth by starfield PLS. met glenz for dinner @ novena and i ate super slowly at nydc cuz the last dinner i ate reasonably faster and my tummy became damn weird.

had a super long htht with glen lim haha. ^^

gonna shower and do chinese + chem hw.

THANK YOU ESMOND FOR PLANNING MY CHINESE LETTER WRITING HW YOU REALLY ARE THE BEST.

ps. nose damn itchy since dinner.






if only my heart would listen to my brain. haha.

TGIFT WOOHOO. WOOHOO. really woohoo.

my first clb lesson starts tmr. 2 hr brk from 230-430 tmr... who wants to meet meeeeee




my MSN is so warped. occasionally i randomly find contacts whom i dont ever ever remember blocking, blocked. so if u find out i blocked you or something, not intentional. msn glitch. and tell me. ill find you on my list and unblock you. sheeeesh msn.

today was the first day of school.. pretty okay. didn't stay long at sch lol. went to beatty to promote NY and give out flyers. beatty did like ok i guess.. maybe deproved abit? oh well. to all my friends who feel unhappy about the results... all i can say is whats done is done. gotta make do with it i guess. and like what min said, this one exam doesnt determine whether ur smart or not, its one exam. some people get 'lucky'. i think its what matters after u go where you go and you can still shine and do well. so just go wherever you can go and work hard and you can still succeed.

family dinnered with ah boyyyy who came back from china for abit, but flying off tmr night. so busyy. he lost weight :( he said i look very 'pong' now HAHA like puffed up hahahaha. :(

yep. tmr's open house. singing with bon.. excited to promote NYJChoir cuz obviously i love it and i love being in it. and im sure we're gonna have fun tmr.. and then dinner with the cui's at night. what else can be better tell me.

and then after that, the real slogging begins.

not prepared. help me. still in party mode.




my favourite flower earstud broke today. i am still rather sad about it ;(

sniff.

today served @ church, lunched w don, did econs proj in school and then met sap and shuangs for dinner at kovan.

admittedly boring day.... so much for the last day of the hols ha ha ha.

oh well. good to be prepared for school.

talking about school. clb lessons have the worst timings. on one day i end at like 6 cuz of stupid clb. i foresee alot of ponning.

omg. school. cnt help but feel depressed. wish choir could be my class.

i want a cheeseburger.




loved the chalet. was the perfect getaway before school and everything gross and stressful it brings. love my choir... love the few of them they are family to me seriously <3

jin esmond sap and i had the best time seriously omg. miss them alr (so lame haha) and cant wait to see them lulz!!

bon was MIA again man, he had class chalet :/

anw

sold my stuff @ a flea today, earned about 200. not bad. gonna save it up. no more wasting money tan hui chi.

super sleepy, but sap wants to meet to eat. but im serving tmr at 9am.

so probably not. i dont even feel like bathing.

ugh, nite guys. catch yall agn





mels says:
ovaltine

Geo says:
oval time
a time in which all things are oval.
oval time

mels says:
HAHAHHAHA
WHEN IS THAT]
i want to see
myself become oval

Geo says:
oval hour.

mels says:
means i
become skinnier

Geo says:
00:00

mels says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
shit
so funny




what is better than Milo?

Ovaltine with crunchy malt balls love you <3 could live on that!!




omg forgot to tell you something funny.

so today was one of the DSA kid's birthday. and after prac about 2 or 3 of us were trying to spread the msg to sing a birthday song for him. and so i whispered to chongcheng about it, and chongcheng HAHAHAHA, in a hushed tone, told the birthday boy "eh later sing birthday song pass down" HAHAHHAHAHA it was SOO FUNNY

so fail but so funny.




hi all.

i woke up for choir. i think the fining system for latecomers work very well for me. i was 5 min late. damage: $2. not too bad. thanks to everyone who called me.

rehearsal for our duet was quite fun (and funny). i miss singing with bon haha. we also tried some very corny choreo which failed terribly but its okay we'll come up with something soon! so eggcited, really :)

lunched with the usual people and MOFed, thank you Charles for your worker's discount!! really :):) so nice of you!!!

ooh ya met germies and cal for abit at nex!!!!!!!! so happy to see them. cuz i haven't seen them for awhile. and good to see them spending time tgt 8)

later left nex to meet limyuanshenglen on the train to town..... omg. spent money again. someone should bite my hands off so i cant shop. (um kidding please dont) but really i spent alot :((

235+35.8= idontevenwanttocalculatecuziknowiwillfeelultraguiltyagainandeverything.

so im left with $4 and er i have choir chalet till fri. so i am really hoping to earn some moolah at the flea on sat.please!!!!!

on a happier note, i bought a damn cute navyblue longchamp backpack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! which explains the $$$.

okay, gotta shower and pack for the flea + chalet. and sleep. damn tired, can die.

goodnight catch ya'll after this busy week!








kinda miss B&B







mom bought this funky hoodie today

and a couple'a other awesome things

mama so cute haha




thinking i can hide some of my new found friends- fat and new weight gained- by wearing big school t shirts totally failed

first proper thing bon said to me after a month of not seeing him "eh you gained weight ah"

hahahahhaha ok good time now to really stop eating like i'm a man.




i wish i could talk about deeper stuff on my blog but sometimes i just can't resist talking about my day!!

haha. lousy stuff... but its okay it makes me happy hehehe




so i went to my family doctor today at like 11:55 (okay, last registration before lunchtime is 12) and it was sooper crowded with old people young people babies and everything. so i had lunch with the choir people and went back for choir until like 1:45, and was the first patient at 2 after lunch!!

then the nurse on duty said the doc's only coming in at 2:30. so i was reading the straits times on my phone and listening to me awesums moozeek. and our friend only came in at 2:45 but oh well.

so i went in and i went "hi i'm here for my second jab" and we had a nice little chat going on for abit while he kind of settled down. and he looked in the fridge for the needle (or whatever it's called..) not there. asked the nurse to bring it. NO STOCK. whaaaat. cuz my second jab is due on the 1jan. they're supposed to have stock right :(

sian. so i need to go back in the weekend for him to poke stuff into my arm.
nyahaha. oh well.




the song i like best now?

gotta be Bluebird by Sara Bereilles.




Geo says:
can you imagine you
spent so much time updating your iPod
then you lose it like..
tomorrow
OH MY GOD!!!

mels says:
GEOR
NO
that will no happen!!

Geo says:
it won't!!!!!!
made a deal with jesus said if I do my homework tomorrow he must protect your iPod




disappointed.. somehow

somewhat.

excited to sing with bon! rehearsal's on wed. i better wake up in time..

omgee. voice you'd better sound good on mic okay? and please cooperate, diaphragm too.




sometimes writing how i truly feel here makes me feel so nake d ha ha ha like my heart on a platter for the world. like im reading back on my previous post and everything and i feel lame for saying how i really feel but then again who comes here

had a good study day with heyong way today did chem homework!packing my desk now.room's a mess. wall's a mess. gonna do up my wall tonight. eveyrthing is falling down.

updated my ipod. after such a long time. feels DAMN GOOD.

need to pee bye




story of two people.
stage 1...

shy and young

and then friends.

young lovers

one of us changed our minds.

awkward

speaking again (phone: "promise me this won't be awkward..." , "yeah, i promise.")

friends

good friends

so close. best friends.

the one who changed the mind fell back in 'like'. never told the other. probably
one-sided.

best friends

one kinda grew up and moved on

still talked, but lesser. still got presents for each other for christmas and birthdays and all that, but they meant less now.

friends

don't know whats going on in the other person's life anymore

less than friends

friends who have grown so apart.

...end



just was thinking about it and realising how.. rare was it for me to fall again after getting to know the person. as a friend again. knowing his faults flaws.. his everything (then). and still liked him for him. i think it'll be hard again. haha. just sayin!

GOODNIGHT YA'LL WOOPSIES ITS 5.30 I AM OFFICIALLY DEAD.




its 3.48am and i have been cleaning up my itunes and music and stuff and downloading and adding new songs from geor into my touchie AND i refused to go shower until i finish everything and its close to 4 and i havent showered!!!!

and there is choir at 930am tmr and im supposed to go to the doc's for a jab before choir. im dead.

nurrggh.

and spoke to d on msn, uncovered some embarrassing stuff from the past haha! goodness, lollsx goodnight.




just spent some time thinking about 2010 and then 2011....

isa65:12

"for I called but you did not answer, I spoke but you did not listen. You did evil in my sight and chose what displeases me."

2011.. i want to be obedient and thus ready when God calls.. never missing the point. listening every time He speaks, this 2011 i just wanna lift up the year as a pleasing sacrifice unto God. yeah. living just to please the One who loves me so much. not easy.. so God i ask for the strength, perseverance, self discipline and faith to follow where you lead me in this year.




i think before i go to bed tonight i have to say sorry to someone very dear to me: donny yen.

well i know i've been a mess this 2010 and in our f/s and stuff? okay maybe not the whole year but really i dunno why i was such an idiot. maybe sometimes i feel like our (very stark) differences is taking a toll on our f/s but who said it was ever easy maintaining a friendship. and i know how it is to be disappointed don, especially in me. im sorry and i just really am thankful now that i know both of us are willing to really stay close even if it means either one of us gets annoyed at our differences in mindset priorities whatever but i still love you alot and you're one of the greatest friends i will ever have.

cuz i know friendship (ours specifically) will sees beyond differences and inconveniences and whatnot.

thank you for never giving up on me and always always forgiving me and having a place in your heart for me i promise i will do the same.

i dont think i can ever find the right words to say this any way else but im sorry and thank you!

xx




yay i'm so happy. i just installed the CNN app on my iphone cuz i saw bren's news updates and now i will no longer be ignorant about the world and what is happening to it and i will not feel guilty when my new GP teachers asks who doesnt read the newspaper you will fail GP (that is nonsense i am a testimony but.yeah)




so i was brb and when i got back i told geor that i was away eating 4 fruit tarts. and then i was gonna do something else and i said:

mels says:
hello geor
im gonna be away for awhile

Geo says:
hello
mels says:
goodnight in advance if ur going off

Geo says:
alrighty I think I might be going off soon
are you going to
eat more
fruit tarts?

mels says:
hehe. LOL no
they were mini fruit tarts, okay?

Geo says:
I see
duly noted.

hehe. geor so cute. anyway. i have a really huge appetite even when im sick. when i woke up after dinner i craved for McChicken burger!! and i did eat quite alot at dinner.. and then there was the (4) mini tarts. and its not like i'm big and tall or anything.




And it's taken me this long but baby but I've figured you out... You used to shine so bright but I watched all of it (you) fade..

You're Not Sorry- Taylor Swift






Words fall out of my mouth
And I can’t seem to trace what I’m saying
Everybody wants your time
I’m just dreaming out loud,
I can’t have you for mine and I know it
I just wanna watch you shine.

Tripping up on my tongue,
It’s all over my face and I’m racing
Gotta get away from you
Burning all the way home,
Try to put it to bed but it chases
Every little thing I do

When the light falls on your face,
Don’t let it change you
When the stars get in your eyes,
Don’t let them blind you.

You’re beautiful
Just the way you are
And I love it all
Every line, and every scar
And I wish that I could make you see
This is where you ought to be,
Come down to me.

Spell it out in a song,
Bet you never catch on to my weakness
I’m singing every word for you.
Here I’m thinking I’m sly
Then you’re catching my eye, and just maybe
You’re thinking what I’m thinking too

When you see it on my face,
Don’t let it shake you
I know better than to try and
Take you with me.

Holler

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