Friday, March 30, 2012
hey guys I'm finally back from my Indo trip.
we took on Jakarta for like 2 days and Bandung for 5. I'm very thankful that Ray could come with me :> if not I'll be shopping alone!! and sleeping alone!! and doing all the girl things alone!! and I enjoyed your company Ray.
It's been a day since I'm back, yet I have been feeling oddly lonely and sian and finding myself thinking about Indo and the times I spent with my group of friends there.
The highlights of my trip, IMO, would be Go-Karting, cooling car rides up the mountain for dinners in the evening, singing in the car after everyone drank a lil and felt tipsy (songs: I am Cow feat. George, Be our Guest feat. Glen and I), dinner at The Peak, dinner at the italian restaurant on our last day, climbing up Mt. Tangkupan Perahu, having a mini mud spa there, taking in scenic views at the sulphur lake, and watching TV together at night.
I don't really know why but I became really childish and easily tickled in indo, maybe cuz im happy. Glen's face is perma funny and esp when he calls me tikus, and i rmb slapping him quite a few times. Also it was a trend to shout at people to get out of the car. It was quite funny.
I think that God's favour and hand was continually blessing us throughout the trip- so thank You God for making it safe and allowing us to have so much fun. Like stopping the rain countless times while we were climbing up the mountain, holding the riot until we got back to Sg, keeping me healthy from sicknesses, etc.
I missed my people (Glen, George, Fendy, Ray) so bad that on the night we got back, I met the 2 guys (G&G) to catch The Hunger Games (also because I've been wanting to watch it badly!!) and it was pretty darn good! dont understand why people said it was meh :( I liked it!
And then today was just a day of resting and sleeping because I caught a flu.. and a fever initially. Thank God its a lot better now after i washed up and ate dinner.
Tonight, my NYJChoir is leaving for Italy to compete in a choir competition. I feel more than a tinge of sadness and longing because I was supposed to go with them- but I know its really expensive and I wouldnt have had the time to go down for practices with them anyway- but yes all the best and I miss ya'll very much, as always.
XOXO 9:55 PM
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Galatians 5:16-23. “But I say walk by the Spirit and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh…The fruit (or deeds) of the flesh are evident which are immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, hatred, strife, outburst of anger, jealousy, disputes, dissensions, factions, envying, drunkenness, carousing, and things like these…But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control, against such things there is no law.”
Sometimes we look at the sin list and we say, “Well I don’t find myself in there anywhere.” But do you know what we fail to do? We fail to look at ourselves in the fruit of the Spirit list and say, “How loving am I being? How kind am I being? How faithful am I being? How gentle am I being?” We tend to measure ourselves by the sins instead of measuring ourselves by the fruit of the Spirit.
-www.startingwithgod.com
XOXO 2:55 AM
Monday, March 19, 2012
Be glorified, and magnified- O God, I worship You!
hi gais,
today i had dinner at gardens and then while glen and i were waiting for the bus back to srgn int, i saw one of my best childhood mates from chiltern a long time ago!! and i stared at him real hard, cuz he was really fmailiar and i was trying to figure out his name. he must have thought i was a freak girl or something, staring with such intensity looooool. so i went home and fb msged him and yes it was him! totally miss the times we hung out, it was always soooo fun!!!!!!!
I MISS MY CHILDHOOD SO MUCH, IT WAS THE BEST EVER.
i wish we took a picture when we were young and awesome and best of frans :3
anyway, today must've been the day i ate the most BREAD. I had an almond swirl and sticky bun from Simply Bread for lunch, and then one cheese and one coffee with custard bread from Bakerzin at night. what!!!! thats crazy!! anyway the cheese one is awesome GO BUY IT
XOXO 2:27 AM
Saturday, March 17, 2012
i miss this (and you guys(and jin's house))very much.
ps: moron dont hate on this pic loooooooooooooooool
XOXO 1:37 AM
Friday, March 16, 2012
Teach me how to worship You in spirit and truth again, Lord.
XOXO 12:01 AM
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Staying up watching ilajil Yt videos, cuz AJ's music is so inspiring and I need quite
a bit of that now!!
Just love how much emotions and substance he can bring out in rawness- like there is nothing fancy, no voice things and mics. Talent passion and that's it.
Love AJ to the end of the earth and back!
Especially love his older videos
XOXO 4:34 AM
Sunday, March 4, 2012
"So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them. "
Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky
XOXO 3:08 AM
Saturday, March 3, 2012
You made me smile :-)
XOXO 8:54 PM
so 2ndMar has finally come and i've gotten my results:
gp: B
geog (h1): B
chem : C
math: A
econs: C
clb: PASS!
well i wouldnt say i was very happy with my results, cuz the minute i got it and i saw 2 C's for my h2's i was like..... whatttttt........ and CHEM. my fav/best/worked most hard for subject. i couldnt get over it for a long time.
it was really funny cuz i told everyone that i WONT CRY. unless i do really well. i'd probably only cry if i get like DDEECS or something. but then i was the first and only one to cry out of everybody LOL. what a softie/idiot i am ha ha ha.
i would say part of it constituted disappointment for chem and econs.. the rest was just like calling my mom and hearing her voice on the phone and then that was good enough to make me cry. or when all my friends came to find me and hug me and say its okay.. that made me cry too. maybe i was too surrounded by love today. you guys are really really so nice to me.
i'm so very touched knowing all these great people around me. i always thought NYJC was a mistake- but knowing ya'll, and growing closer to those who came to ny with me- i guess its enough. it really is. i am reading this book called 'Perks of being a Wallflower' and one thing i have gotten out of the book is .. sometimes all you need to be happy is for what you have to be ENOUGH, you know. like how when you were young, eating french fries with your mom would be enough. alot of times now, stuff just never seems to be enough. but this book has taught me to be happy where i am and what i have. it is enough. ACC/BB(A) might not be the best grades ever but i can enter a local uni.... yeah.. and i did tell everyone i'll be happy with just one A. and i have it. and i passed GP. in fact i got a B. and for not doing a 16mark qn in geog, i got a B grade. miracles happen. earlier, i didnt see it cuz i let the C's haze over what was good. but all in all, i give praise. it has been a day full of emotions really, but i thank God because of the people He placed around me that are so full of faith and truth and encouragement. and i thank God because no results He gives me can be bad. i just thank God for delivering me through my emotions. thank You God for I know You will mould be into a better person. teach me to submit everything unto You. i know You are still God and the same one that will continue to watch over and take care of me.
to people like Reaiah, Trace and Kai, i'm very very extremely proud of ya'll. i'm so so proud and happy for your good results. it makes me shine just knowing such close friends of mine have fared so well.
to Trace, thank you for always always ALWAYS being here for me. i love you like shit. you were there for me when i had no study buddy. u became my study buddy and did night study with me though u had other buddies and though your parents didn't really like you staying out so late. you were there for me the night before GP exam and i was totally breaking down because i felt so screwed and unprepared for the Essay. actually you were there the whole A levels, on the phone and everything. you really gave me much support and without you i really doubt i would pass my A's. thanks for letting me into your life and taking time and effort to know me and entertain my worries and shit. love you like hell :']
to Moron, i know you didnt know what to say to me when i was crying lamely on the phone and you probably didn't understand half the things i was saying to you but you still listened anyway. i dont know why but you're always like my older sister reassuring me and everything and always wanting the best for me and listening to me rant. i love you so much okay :)
to prissypoop and jin and shuangs and esmond, i was very comforted by ya'll today. i love yall very much and yall give me so much hope and everything.
to Con who was halfway around the world in a different time zone and who still remembered to WAPP me about results- i am eternally thankful for the f/s that we have. thank you for cherishing us so much. i hope you are doing okay.
to Bon and Kai. ya'll are my dearest guy friends ever. just being with ya'll brings a lot of assurance and comfort. thanks for being my study buddies during A's and always always bothering to answer my questions (that come every like, minute. annoying much) and spending your precious time to teach me concepts and tips and being so sincere in our f/s. already missing our study seshies/all-nighters since A's ended. kinda lol.
to Ray, thanks for spending wednesday night having dinner and dessert with me at gardens, it meant a lot to sit down and talk about stuff. and for reassuring me about my grades today. :)
to justin and yousung, haha. i was v touched yall actually rmbed i was collecting my A's results today and texted me about it. haven't seen yall in ages and really miss jamming/supper/prawning/talking in the car lol.
to aby: no matter what i'm proud of u cuz i know you improved from prelims :) and im proud that ur giving this whole thing to God and being obedient. God gave you your results for a reason- we don't know why, or what the next step is or how it will all turn out, but God knows the big plan He has drawn up for you. so keep the faith. He is and always will be taking care of You and rmb that He will never ever forsake us in our weaknesses.
to Minnie, thanks for the phonecall. i felt v comforted just talking to you just now. cant wait to meet you:)
to Chlo whom i spent thursday evening with, blading to chomps for dinner. thank you for always reminding me of His faithfulness and sovereignty in my life. you are truly a Godsent angel SERAPHINA!! :p
and to God, I would have fallen apart and died if not for Your unending grace and strength and love. all glory to God, all of it belongs to You. God i have full faith in You. teach me to seek You in all that I do and decide, so that You will be part of every single step I make.
XOXO 3:53 AM
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Today - C3
Today
Im leaving all my troubles behind
Im letting go Ill follow the line
Holding on with all of my life
I see Your rising Son
We've only just begun
Today
Im walking to the beat of Your heart
You take me all the way to the start
Stretch Your hand straighten the path
Im found in open skies
Your heart it lives in mine
Today
Im finding my first love again
Im learning how to let You in
Trusting You with all that I am
The shadows fade away
Its You that clears the day
No more running wild
Im Yours for life
You got me here
You got me
I hear Your call tonight
Your heart is mine
You got me here
You got me
You drew me out of the deepest sea woah
You gave my soul a song to sing woah
You took me up on the mountains high woah
I see my life in a different light woah
XOXO 3:04 AM
hi guys, its been quite a while eh. today i am blogging because GOD has given me yet a new revelation- and where else better but my own home toilet :)
you might be wondering how i'd ever know its from God and not my own psycho thinking; i know it is from God, because the thought, or idea, is fully developed, its not in pieces. its whole when it comes. and i know when i think of ideas and things, its all over the place....
so anyway, A's results come out this friday, aka 2 more days. which is pretty near, and very surreal, not necessarily in a good way. been feeling the jitters of anticipation, and because i dont know what to expect, i'm expecting the worst. and im afraid my worst wont be worse enough, so thats been a really scary thought running in my head for awhile.
but God has been very good, God has been showing me things and speaking to me in bible verses and worship songs.
isaiah55:9-13
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the juniper,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD’s renown,
for an everlasting sign,
that will endure forever.”
psalm34:8
"Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him."
and recently, God has been putting in my mouth songs that sing of His greatness, His goodness, His sovereignty. Its really been amazing and i'm really blessed.
and just about half an hour ago, God told me in the shower:
that whatever I get on my results slip is what He has planned, for my GOOD and my PROSPERITY. in life, i will always have things and priorities i put over work. as how i have studied for A's, i have done my best to prioritise, and the result of my choice of priorities will be what i get. and this is not just true for my A's- it will be for my future too. things that matter to me will always matter to me: people, relationships, alone time, serving God, God, etc. in my daily schedule, there will always be 24hours a day. and what i fit into the 24hours is my choice. the thing God is showing me is that as the person He has created me to be, this is the best i have done, and my grades will adequately reflect my abilities with regards to uni courses (cuz i believe that different courses have different cut off points for a reason, right.) and by His grace, whatever time i put in for work He has and always will help to make it adequate.
so in short, i dont really know how to say it, but God wants me to be happy. so He will close all the doors not meant for me and open the others really wide for me, by giving me results that are best for me and not just the best results. and i will praise God for His favour in my life. i believe in my God who gives me the best. So Lord, teach me not to doubt that in the face of bad results.
its scary to think about why God is telling me all this, as if He has to prepare me for really, really, really terrible results. but the fact that He speaks to me so much to prepare me shows that He knows me, He really cares, and that come what may, in my whole entire life whether i live it long or short, God will provide, because He is my Father. so i will learn to take these steps of faith, one by one, like what p.Mel spoke of last weekend, for the One who leads me sees everything and knows everything. so I will follow.
so thank You God for i know, i know it full well that You will see me through friday.
XOXO 1:56 AM
