Monday, February 28, 2011
grandaunt's place. i think i'm bigger than my dad now.
XOXO 10:49 PM
love these people, miss those who have graduated..
XOXO 1:12 AM
Sunday, February 20, 2011
God knows and understands me better than i know myself.
He really ministered to me today. One moment i was asking for His grace, and in the next moment i felt His unending grace pouring all over me. one moment i was asking myself why i was feeling so lousy and why i was so distracted from worship, and the next moment bro KF had an altarcall for people who have been feeling disappointed with themselves. and that was me.. that was it. i was disappointed with myself for many things.
not doing enough to speak and reach out to my class and school mates. not helping out enough at home. not spending enough time with my parents. not putting my everything in my TAWG every night. not doing TAWG every night. not praying enough. not believing enough. not interceding enough. not being faithful enough. not putting God as first priority all the time. not being a good student. giving up on people when i know i shouldn't. giving up on things and situations.. when i know that God is greater.. allowing my sinful nature to make compromises.. small ones. but they're still compromises. giving in to what i know shouldn't be.
but today i have left them at the altar because condemnation and disappointment do not come from God. because God knows of my sinful nature but have looked past that and still loved me because He knows sin is not my intention..
God has really really ministered to a part of my heart that i never knew needed healing cuz i was unknowingly holding on to my own disappointments and they just kept building and i just wanna thank God for opening my eyes to His love, forgiveness, mercy and grace, and healing that part of me and just being so amazing i am still in awe at how He had worked in me during service.
XOXO 3:08 AM
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
I am disappointed because your big fat man ego always gets in the way always thinking you're right and very mature but really sometimes u can be a plain mcp. But really I am disappointed because I honestly thought i saw more in you.
And the other you, I've given up connecting the bridges haha. In fact I am building defences what the pong. what is goin to come out of this melisa tan. . . ...
XOXO 1:02 AM
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
i hate how it is between the two of us,
everytime you talk to me this sudden pang of cold washes over me..
i guess its only human to put up defences, sometimes.....
XOXO 11:53 PM
so i was sitting in econs class room #5-44 on a hot tuesday afternoon.
econs class got so boring, i started playing with the skin on my left thumb (it was coming out a little) and LO AND BEHOLD i pulled it and i skinned a strip my thumb like BANANA PEEL
AND IT REALLY DOES HURT NOW.
and i have cwo tmr.
and chem IE test.
and a very bad flu/cough.
life is going well.
hahahahhaha
XOXO 10:06 PM
Sunday, February 13, 2011
i wish some normal (real..) people would tag on my tagboard. for a change. these viruses don't make sense.
okay IE bye
XOXO 2:37 AM
sipping hot honey yet again, the flu is making me feel really tired.
at Your feet i lay my burdens
at the cross where Your love covers
all i've done
now i walk with You Lord
if there are no downs in life we won't ever learn anything.
reminder: in the darkness, remember what God said to you in the light
had a really good time with don and glen. i am so glad to have the both of them.
XOXO 2:29 AM
Friday, February 11, 2011
yesterday i was dizzy and now i caught a cold
it really isnt the best time... i cant afford this:(
got so much hw and all that to catch up.
so tired.
gonna shower and sleep. leave homework to tomorrow......
goodnight.
thanks ray for talking to me today!
XOXO 11:30 PM
Sunday, February 6, 2011
clb at 730am tomorrow for an hour. monday blues to a whole new level.
well.......... cny has been alright. i just feel the need now to list out all my hw :(
geog- tut 5,6. readup.
chem- alkenes tut. test corrections. (the test i failed, i might add. 29/60 sigh)
math- tut 12A. math test.
econs- readup. essay outline qn7b.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ shudders
its full speed ahead now, now now now
no more breaks.. till june.. but june in itself is self boot camp
greener grass: having seafood tonight @ east coast w momi and her friends.
nyeheheh.
XOXO 6:32 PM
happy birthday my friend.
XOXO 1:44 AM
Saturday, February 5, 2011
its already the end of friday which officially marks the end of the CNY break (excluding the weekends) which means i need to get back to the cycle of slogging and really i am so reluctant to.
i am glad to announce that i didn't eat as much in this cny break as how people usually do and i even ate salad for dinner today!!!
however it is 4.11am and therefore cant wake up for gym @ min's tmr. nvm. next saturday.
i have homework. gross.
chem alkenes tut, math 12A tut, geog & econs read up. best.
today went to my grandaunt's for lunch and heheh angpow collection and met my relatives and stuff, some whom i really missed :) left later to meet val... was reading a book and waiting for her @ ion sb when suddenly glen tapped me and i got the shock of my life cuz i was reading the super kanchiong part of my book!! later robert came too, and after dinner val left and dione met us at the esplanade.
the really odd thing is that we bumped into han jonus and pi on the train to cityhall.. and a splits2nd after the grp of them left, i bumped into wei don, and then when i walked out onto the street i bumped into jinyang who was running to look for hpp. hahahaha.
it was nice today, i endjoyed my night.
also. bought the nail polish that i really wanted from sephora.
and.
really liked this perfume, but felt like i shouldnt spend $$. weird cuz i usually am not very much into perfume..
okay. catch ya again byebye
XOXO 4:09 AM
Friday, February 4, 2011
happy luna(tic)r new year -dances-
i'm not gonna be complaining about how i have no mood or whatnot because i am simply glad that there's a break ^^
i had my reunion dinner @ home on the eve, and today on Chu yi went to my paternal grandparents house and also the annual porridge house and my dad's place. came home for dinner and went to godma's at night. played unblock me and read my book until i fell asleep..
my rashes are acting up again >.< hate it!!
anw i think some people will be proud of me because i haven't been stuffing myself silly like what ur supposed to do on cny.. :) and im actually rly looking forward to gym with min on sat!!!!!
i think in china they get like a week or two of break ;(
oh well. not complaining hahaha
homework but im just gonna leave that for next time.. and omg math test ;( cry
XOXO 3:03 AM
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
i really, really miss you.
in a friendly kind of way.. you know.
:/
XOXO 9:45 PM
