Tuesday, June 28, 2011
I figured that the best thing I could do is show you something different from what you've known all your life
XOXO 8:33 PM
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
1 Cor 13:12
Sidenote. Understood myself better w the help of ray haha ha. Geog was terrible, but drqs were doable... Will not be discouraged. Econs cs tmr. Goodnght all, press on :)
XOXO 2:05 AM
Monday, June 27, 2011
God spoke to me in the shower.
You know the thing about showers is that you can't do much... Except shower. Maybe sing a little, think a little.. But we can't bring our phones and stuff inside cuz well, it's wet. And that's like entering into a place away from distractions.
Sometimes, people like me don't like bathing too much cuz we're lazy to... Yea. Undress, get wet... The works. I'd rather stay where I am. But the truth is the shower cleanses, rejuvenates and relaxes. And we can't deny how much better we feel after showering, as much as we say we hate it. And this is where God shows me how sometimes I'm so caught up with life,....school is enough. And then rollercoasters sometimes, keeping up with people, serving even, worrying about this and that. And sometimes I am just so resistant and stubborn to move. Get out of where I am, where I am distracted, keeping up, keeping on, relying on myself. Perhaps there lies a sense of familiarity, after all I've been there for so long? But if only we could get past this inertia, this stubborn refusal, laziness, and this lack of hope for better things, choose to enter where it would be uncomfortable getting wet at first, and receiving what God has for us (so much that He wants for us) and choose to enter into where we know truly satisfies, truly satiates, truly calms, truly refreshes, truly comforts, truly assures, we would always stay in that place of rush, unhappiness, dissatisfaction, bitterness and constant worries. And this place we must choose to go, is ironically, where we learn to take our entire mind and being off OURSELVES, and choose to focus and realign and glorify and be completely consumed in His glory, His greatness, His power, His everything. And then we stop our human nature of rambling and going and thrusting head-first into things and knocking about.. which accomplishes nothing much at all. And then we start to live. Live in all that He has for us.
Sometimes we are the ones who stop ourselves from being in His great plan, and we are the ones who are standing against it all. So we must overcome ourselves first, I mean I have to.
Haha wow.
XOXO 12:59 AM
Sunday, June 26, 2011
No mood for midyears. Enough of studying, time to start living.
And time to sort out my stupid self urgh, it sucks.
Sorry for today's spam
XOXO 10:24 PM
I stood in front of the gummy aisles feeling sad for about 3 minutes, someone please slap me lol
XOXO 9:26 PM
Watching my extremely player friend mess around with girls and their feelings constantly reminds me not to fall into a...or any trap that may very well be right in front of me
Haha
Sheesh. Damn gross
XOXO 9:25 PM
Watching my extremely player friend mess around with girls and their feelings constantly reminds me not to fall into a...or any trap that may very well be right in front of me
Haha
Sheesh. Damn gross
XOXO 4:12 PM
Learnt important stuff from dione today ^^ and had an enlightenment...hmm hmm.
XOXO 4:09 PM
This is a no-brainer. But the stuff in my left ribcage doesn't take that for an answer. May my brain win, please
:)
XOXO 2:54 AM
I know you're not supposed to say this of someone of an opposite sex who's attached, but bon is seriously one of the best guy friends I can ever ever ask for, haizz he is so nice to me (friend wise, in all clarity!)
I am zo blezzed ^^
XOXO 12:31 AM
Saturday, June 25, 2011
This 11:10 thing is crazy! Been seeing it for the past 2 nights and this morning.... And now.
Weeeeird!
XOXO 11:11 PM
What kind of heart doesn't look back?
XOXO 7:05 PM
Presence makes the heart grow fonder, no really.
I think I'm being the stupidest girl!!
XOXO 7:00 PM
The movie made me so sleepy.... I have 20 more pages of globalization to go and heeeeellllloooo my soft bed.
But really..I feel stupid for believing that something can come out of this, not again, I'm not falling into that shit once more???But I enjoyed being w u today..that's all. It was good relaxing time after studying 12-9. Ends at that.
Ha bye. Hello disorganized nkt globn notes.
XOXO 12:38 AM
What's really attractive is a God-loving and God-fearing man.
XOXO 12:34 AM
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Every morning I must ask God for the wisdom to use my days wisely for my days are numbered. So that I will not be contented with just the doing and the slogging without making God part of this.
Something I learnt when I served in worship at Germ's and matt's school some weeks ago.
Time flies....
XOXO 6:45 PM
I just want to say it's really awkward seeing 11:10pm consecutively for the last 3 days or so. Hahah
XOXO 6:44 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
I miss you
And yet i don't...
Then I do again
My heart has to make up it's mind, isn't this paradoxical.
Btw, just helping Dione advertise, she's Donating her uterus to anyone who wants it.
XOXO 9:47 PM
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Sometimes I realize that I am my own biggest judge (talking about people-wise), not the girl with the condescending eyes or even my friend who says it's ok, you did fine.....
And ps. I think I miss you?
XOXO 10:35 PM
Studied w bon the entire of ytd, totally missed studying w him it's been ages since we did that. Yeah managed to catch up and talked alot actually, he is so interesting to talk to. And he is such a great friend to have, he's the kind that I know will stick around through time and things.. Haha ok getting back to
Geog now urgh I'm way behind schedule it's kinda scary
XOXO 10:34 PM
Thursday, June 16, 2011
totally miss my long hair.
XOXO 4:21 AM
i found myself food too hahahaha
yes i found some yummy pork thingy in the fridge
i had it cold since i was lazy 2 heat it up, still yummy though
HAHAHAHA omg i thought u cursed or smth
XOXO 3:53 AM
i wasted 4 hours of studying time doing nothing with the Leh, after jams at PL (so fun!)
but its ok, we haven't hung out and did nothing for quite a while.
aneeeeeeewaiiiii, good news.!!!! momi coming for parents' day at PL w godmomi to watch me sing (to a really really big auditorium, never sang in front of so many ppl before) and i am so excited that she is coming!!!!!!!!
ok geog now BAIBAIS
XOXO 2:53 AM
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Cause i cant continue pretending to choose the opposite sides on which we fall, the loving you laters if at all
XOXO 1:01 AM
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Truth is we can't shut out our thoughts. We either fall under the whole negativity of our mind we often can't control, or face them in the truth and promises our God has assured us with.
XOXO 10:16 PM
I wonder how my late night chiltern friends Lucas and jeff are doing now. Hope they are doing good.... From the last time I remembered, they picked up smoking or smt :/ but they were so nice to hang out with.
XOXO 1:19 AM
Monday, June 13, 2011
Really thank God that Im having Gp tuition w Ruki and Ben now, cuz honestly if I didn't I'll really feel like I have no proper friends from church ha, (don't be stumbled, I just don't mix ard alot and disappear aft svc) and God knows that and I enjoy the fellowship we have after each weekly tuition. And I'm very thankful ^^
XOXO 10:23 PM
I'm looking and thinking about my good friends, and I realize that they all are very good-looking people, and no I'm not being superficial but I'm just saying that they're all very beautiful and precious to me in their own different ways!
Love you guys :)
XOXO 1:45 AM
Friday, June 10, 2011
Sorry haha, been Rather volatile emotionally lately, but I always turn out fine.
Realize I can't and don't post stuff like that on twitter/fb cuz there's just so many people on twitter I hardly know properly, and for fb cuz my mom has me on hers!! :p then she'll get all paranoid.
And besides.. Hardly anyone knows melazdod, or i trust the readers of this space :)
Goodnight, you guys.
XOXO 1:28 AM
Thursday, June 9, 2011
God help me, I want to fling myself off a cliff. Sick of schoolwork and balancing everything else and I just feel like becoming nothing, turn into air or something, yet I know better that there will be better things and things I will learn from all of this nonsense, yet I am just so sucked out and dry now and the feeling that I can't have any more faith than the little that I am having, yet God tells me to remember what He said to me in the light.
XOXO 11:24 PM
I won't believe it when you say you'll be there for Me anytime anymore, not after tonight, or maybe I'm just too sensitive... for now
Feeling ultra messed up, truth is I have no one to speak to and it's just swirling about in my head and it's so off/on I would just yank the bloody plug out if I could and say we're quits I'm done with
this stupid thing I'm in
XOXO 11:20 PM
Strangely Deja Vu, except this time it's twice of one week, and it's not actually another country.. Hmmmmmmm
XOXO 11:17 PM
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
the sianness is pushing its way back in after all that rioting and conflict and clash of different feelings, hopefully it all dies down soon enough, i've gotten sick of the tummerflies, i keep wanting to puke just thinkinggg
it should go away and never come back .......... nownownow please!
it was aby's birthday a few days ago!
XOXO 3:44 AM
mel you are so shallow
XOXO 3:34 AM
Monday, June 6, 2011
Dione and I
Phonecall: 1am
Location: couch in the hall
Topic: dissection of tactics and manipulative mind games
Result: success; clear head, see-through tactics, master plan mapped out
Hehe ^^
XOXO 1:56 AM
This night is sparkling, Don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew I was enchanted to meet you. ....
:)
Be good where you go
XOXO 12:33 AM
Saturday, June 4, 2011
To be realigned with God is extremely important.
The immense amount of peace and rest that my entire being is feeling right now.... Wow.
In contrast to the past weeks.
Thank You God
XOXO 8:51 PM
Friday, June 3, 2011
TgfA/C! Will die w/o a/c really
XOXO 9:54 AM
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Being ready and being lonely are 2 completely different matters
XOXO 7:56 PM
